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*post removed due to privacy, fuck poems!*
i love this song. its such a shame an amazing rapper died soo tragically and her album never recieved recognition in the US. rest in peace left eye


edit: ugh, the things i hate about myself rant! wow i havent ranted in weeks! here goes nothing..
i hate crying out my sorrows.
i hate the way i act around people.
i hate how i used to be mean to certain types of people.
i hate myself.
i hate not acting like myself 'round people i like.
i hate proving myself that im wrong.
i hate the way i looked today.
i hate how i talked to my friend today
i hate showing off sometimes
i hate not being undertsood.
i hate how my friend gave me a weird look today.
i hate being jealous of other girls who have it easy for them.
i hate how i can't act normal around him.
i hate how thinking about what people would say if im around him.
i hate being the one that allways has to judge somehing.
i hate the fact that my mother doesn't understand me.
i hate the fact that i've done soo much shit in the last year it might creep up again.
i hate how i feel as if imma stalker to him.
i hate how im allways mad at myself over useless crap
i hate how i can't relate to everyone in life.
i hate feeling as if im dying.
i hate how im allways thinking about dying.
i hate how nobuddy has time to hang with me.
i hate how people come up with reasons not to hangout with me.
i hate how people say that they will hangout with me, but never show up.
i hate how i never had a normal life.
i hate saying that medication will solve my problems.
i hate how medication makes me sleepy sometimes
i hate crying in front of my mom.
i hate how my mom allways ask me to talk to her about my problems.
i hate how my mother thinks that people dont force me to talk.
i hate how its allways my sister telling my mother whats going on with my life.
i hate not having a father around.
i hate not having a real family
i hate how i suck at living
i hate the person i became two years ago, but loved the change.
i hate how stoners understand my problems
i hate how regular people dot understand my life.
i hate wondering whats it like to loose
i hate the fact that im crazy.
point black period
i hate the fact that i never had a boyfriend.
i hate fantasizing how i'll get a boyfriend.
i hate the fact that i never kissed someone.
i hate the fact that im not a depraved person.
i hate the fact that im ugly.
i hate being 18 now.
i hate the fact that im turing 19.
i hate the fact that i havent smoked an electronic ciggarette.
i hate living such a sad life, but love it at the same time.
i hate not being around people i love everyday.
i hate the fact that bestfriend has no time to hangout with me.
i hate the fact that she has can do things and work 24/7.
i hate the fact that cannot do things i wanna do in life
i hate the fact that i dont have a permit.
i hate the fact that i've never driven a car.
i hate my life.
i hate hwerei live but beginningto love school again
i hate the fact that im not a freshman anymore
i hate the fact that im not in college everyday.
i hate the fact that im not as open as i should be.
i hate how everyone in this worl are 2-faced.
i hate bitches who treat me like shit.
i hate how i treat bitches like shit back.
i hate being a bitch
i hate my ethnicity.
i how how my country is poor.
i just hate how life can be such a fucking struggle
i hate karma.
i hate how im always talking to myself as if the person is real
i hate how my bipolar disorder can fuck up my mood during the day
i hate how i allways find that something bad is going to happen the next day
i hate discovering that something bad has happened that day.
i hate you, and still do after five months of hell.
i hate myself.
the end.

im going to look for a job right now... more shit tommorrow.thank goodness its friday. going to sleep right and get ready for the new day. yes im soo ready for this. sooo fucking ready ya hear me! .